I started a new job this week with March of Dimes, working as an Assistant Campaign Coordinator.  Which means I am now doing two jobs.  It's pretty draining already and it's only been a week so I'm really hoping I can manage.  I do not however, have any time to do all the things that make me calm and happy.  I get home around 6, have dinner, then work from 7-12, sleep.  Do it all again the next day.  I definitely like the job and appreciate having a job but it has given me a revelation.

For a very long time, ever since I started sewing and making clothes, I have wanted to pursue a career in apparel design.  There are plenty of people around me who believe in me, but I've always been held back because I didn't really think I could do it.  However, I have seriously considered taking classes to get certified in apparel making in the industry.  Primarily, I have been looking into Apparel Arts in San Francisco.  FIDM would be nice but right now it is not something I can afford and Apparel Arts provides me with the certification, flexible classes, and it is not tooo expensive.  I am particularly interested in patternmaking and that would be one of the first classes I'd want to take, even if not getting certified.  Just the thought of creating patterns everyday, working with fabrics, and sewing for a living puts a humongous smile on my face.  

I don't know what will happen in the future, guess that is why I have this thing to look back on.  But I know that I will regret it if I don't even try to pursue this and I know I cannot live with that.  

In the meantime, I won't even have a real "space" for the next half-month to month and won't be able to do any sewing which will make me a sad, stressed, grumpy person. =[